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Since there was nothing much for me to do, I started doing some self-reflection again. I must say I'm really good at..Good at looking happy when I'm obviously not!!~~ Oh well, that's a plus point =) Talked to a few people online just now, saw the tags on my blog and I seriously, am very touched by all these little actions. You guys might not know, but by just taking the effort to tag, sms or even smile, are encouragements to me.(",)
Sometimes I really hate you, for pulling me up from the deep hole and throwing me back into the same hole, causing a even deeper wound. I was already 90% heal, you came and quicken the process to made me heal and get over everything 100%. But now, you simply inflicted deeper and more wounds on me. Well, perharps because you made me get over the previous fall 100%, that's why I forgotten how I fell. Now conclusion, I fell worst, but the same way as the previous one. Argh! This is horrible.
Whatever. I realised that my life is just filled with passer-by. Everybody just comes and leaves as and when they want. Haix. If you did realise, after a post in this blog, everything started to go back to the emotional me again, because the post was written after I finally realised that the motivation that made me laugh again had left for good.
The previous fall was losing the motivation to make me smile,but I gained the motivation that make me laugh. But now, i lost the motivation that made me laugh, so all I'm left with now is, facade. Oh God, save me! I only wish for a special someone to appear, just one is enough to bring me out of these. I also dun need millions of friends, I just need a few that will stand by me whenever i fall.
I don't wish for many, I just want that few or one.
posted at 1:55 AM
