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If God would grant me a wish, I would pray for him to turn back time. In this way, I can change many decisions made, maybe resulting in a happier me whom hurt less people.
I miss the times when I'm still young, being the baby of the whole family, with everyone doting on me like a little princess. I miss the times when I was still on good terms with them.
I miss the times during pre-school to kindergarden period where pure friendships still exist and everyone was still so innocent and naive. I miss the times when everyone's main purpose was just to play and have fun, where no evil thoughts were involved.
I miss the times in primary school when I was still so hardworking, always mugging on my own accords. I miss the times when little conflicts occur but everyone gives and takes, with no evil acts involved.
I miss the times in secondary school when everyone seems so bonded and caring towards each other. I miss the times when teachers are like friends to us, always there whenever we needed them.
Hmmmm! I wish that time could turn back and pass slowly, so I can have more time to treasure those precious moments which I didn't learn to cherish in the past. Another reason is that I want time to turn back so I can make another decision, perharps life would be better.
First, I would have chosen to stay close with the family because they're just wonderful people whom God had given me. I am who I am today, thanks to them =)
Secondly, I would have chosen not to drift away from God at the beginning of last year. Drifting away from him resulted in me having depression for 4months, and hence not going to school regularly from January till April. That period of time was really a terrible experience. Thanks to my family, teachers, friends, seniors, peers and juniors whom stood by and the constant encouragement.
Thirdly, I would have chosen to stayed to help out at Hula until school reopen. This way I would be too busy to meet up with ZH so often in the past. Therefore, maybe I wouldn't be so disappointed now for having another "hi-bye friend"
Fourthly, I would have certainly chosen to just shut myself off from you since I didn't even know you. I would have chosen not to say all those beautiful statements to you, since you were just a stranger. I would have chosen not to be there for you. I would have chosen not to open up to you. I would have chosen not to depend so muh on you. I would have chosen not to believe in your words. I would have chosen not to know you at all.
I shall not be so greedy to ask for so many things. All I ask for now is for the ability to get over you. I know it's impossible to get the memories out, all I ask for is to be able to stop thinking of you. That's all I ask for! That's all...
posted at 3:00 AM
