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I'm trying hard to move on. I'm trying real hard to pick myself up again, without any help this time! It's really tough though. When I'm finally feeling slightly better, things that will rake up the past just pass by me again. They always never fail to make me fall back to the original spot or fall even deeper.
I tried to keep myself away from all sorts of things that will make me fall back, but I can't control your side though. I can't bring myself to tell you not to do those craps and nonsense, but I did drop hints, it's just that you thought those hints were jokes.
I know this contradicts! I know, I really really know! You guys don't have to tell me how stupid or dumb I am, because I know! I know I'll feel more hurt this way, I know I'll take a even longer time to pick myself up this way, but it's even more hurting to bring myself to really keep a distance.
Never mind. At least I know there are friends that will cheer me up when I'm feeling down =)
posted at 2:20 AM
