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I have no idea why is everyone telling me about all their problems tonight. I'm feeling so emotional now! Tears welling up in my eyes, but there's nothing that I can do about it. Talk to someone? Blogging it out? How to do all these when I'm feeling totally lost and confuse. I just can't find the right words to express how I feel. That's also one major problem that I'm facing now!
Firstly,I guess you're one person that I really thank God for letting me know you. You were someone I knew by mistake, a beautiful accidental to me. When I'm facing problems and can't turn to anyone because of one reason or another,you were always there to listen and cheer up me.
To you,you might felt that you didn't do much for me because you weren't good at your words, but seriously, you played an important part in my life when I was trying hard to pick myself up when I fell so seriously back then.
Thanks for helping me up, teaching and guiding me to start walking again. You might have the same thoughts as me sometimes, why I trusted you so much. It's because you shared your problems with me, so I told you mine too. It was supposed to be an exchange, and we thought it's much easier talking in this way since we don't know who's over at the other screen.
After all, we finally meet up and had a fun day and you knew my other friends too. I was super glad that we can all click so well. In the past, every little small thing can let you know how I'm feeling, but now, even if it's obvious you treat it as you don't know anything I suppose.
Knowing that you're not feeling great and asked you about it, all you did was started joking about it again. It really breaks my heart sometimes. Where are all the words that you had given to me? Why bother to make promises when you know that you can't keep?
Secondly, I'm afraid! Now is my down period. It means that I'll fall easily too. Please.. Dear God, let me stay strong this time round. I really do not hope to fall and commit any mistake that I'll regret for life.
Lastly, having so many problems but I can't even turn to someone I used to depend alot on in the past. She might be having her very own problem, hope she'll be doing fine too.
posted at 11:18 AM
