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-645am- *Rolling around my bed* Started to feel really tired after working out my brain for so long, thinking of the things that happened since young, especially those things that are such wonderful memories.
Most of the flashbacks were the memories of you though, all the sweet old times we had chatting, hanging out together with the other two girls! Then this sudden thought that I should go online since I cannnot fall asleep came into my mind. However, I fell asleep after all the tears. I must admit, it's really tiring to play with elmo!
I guess I was so tired that I only woke up at 150pm, when sun started to really shine on my face! Haha!
-May the fleas of a thousand camels infest the ass of the person who screws up your day and may his arms grow too short to scratch his ass! Gd morning=) -
A message that brought smile to my face straight after I woke up. Haha! Quickly, I washed myself up and I got so stunt when I looked in the mirror! Haha! My eyes were like puffer fish! Wanted to turn around and quickly rushed back into my room but I bumped into my mum.
She gave me a stunt look and asked what's wrong with my eyes. Haha! It's then that I knew the amount of tears shed last night! =) Off I went into my room and started to do blog-hopping, surt the net and chatting with people.
Saw messages sent to me when I went offline. Sweet messages like, u know you could have called me last night, i would have answered your call u know =), i will always be your frend ya...so no fear of imposing, buddies for life, hey gal are you feeling better, you know you have us around yea! Again it was all these messages that brought smile to me!(",)
Thanks alot my dear friends =) All the little concern cheered me up a little(",) Went to read clemmy seashell's blog and saw a very inspiring post. "The bungee rope are all the encouragements and friends who provided all the support, during this period of time." All my friends here, you guys are like the bungee rope tied strongly to me. Thanks for pulling me back whenever I fall from a great height =)
After that, saw his nick and went to read his blog. Woah! Disappointment again. Told Jiaen about it and she started screaming over msn. Haha! But I have nothing to say as well. You know I'll still keep my promise to be there whenever you need me. You know I'll still keep my promise to listen whenever you're down. You know I'll keep my promise to be there when you feel like crying. But I doubt you'll even remember that you still have these promises with me. I guess, when you really need someone, you won't even remember having us, this group of friends who helped you along for the past few months.
Listening to songs and tears welling up in my eyes when the lyrics hit me at the right spot. Heh! =) I'm glad that I'm able to shed tears again. It was so terrible last time when your heart is aching so badly that sometimes you even find it so hard to breathe, but no matter how hard you try, but tears just can't seems to be squeezed out! That was also the period of time when it seems that I'm numb to almost everything.
If something happens, I know I feel the pain, but I seem to be numb towards it because it just don't seems that serious compared to what I went through?? Something like you lost a precious gift which only cost $1, then you realised that you lost your wallet the next day, you feel the pain, but it can't be compared to the pain of losing that precious gift althought it only costed $1.
I have no idea how to express it out, but whatever it is, try to understand it if you can, or else just forget about it. I don't even know what I'm feeling exactly. Haha! =) A smile after I woke up and that's it. Off I went to play with elmo again!!~~ =(
posted at 2:56 PM
